I don’t think you need to underplay OP issues. While he may be better off financially than lots of people, feeling lost with little passion for life is still not a good situation, and he deserves to feel the way he does.
It reads like a humblebrag to me.
"had 2 failed startups".
"I am single and haven't had a serious relationship for many years now."
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Yes, that's a valid path, too. When I was just starting out (circa 1990) a good friend of mine had a pal that was making his living servicing punch card machines. They were completely unsupported by IBM at the time, this guy had been an IBM tech and saw the opening. He embraced the old tech, knowing there were people still using it and willing to pay for some form of support. So I don't disagree with that idea, it's…
SQL isn't quite comparable today to punchcards in 1990, is it?
So long as you're fully vaxed its not so bad. Heading there next month ;)
You can certainly catch a variant or just test positive even if you are fully vaxed and boosted. And frankly it wouldn't surprise me if this is just a way to shakedown tourists. They decided last week that on the first and fifth days from arrival you must stay in an approved hotel. They don't tell you the results until you are all tucked in, and so you have a rather high chance of ending up in an expensive covid jail…
Yeah, happy with that risk, 2 years of lockdowns and no travelling you know?
So you sound a little depressed. Not dating may be a mistake. It may be that your unconscious mind is suggesting you start a family and plays down other activities.
To your last point; You don’t’feel’ that time is running out. Time is running out and you need to be highly aware of that fact.
Wishing you could go back in time and do things differently is everyone’s story
Because I have a whole bunch of employees who still like to eat and a whole bunch of customers who love what we do. If I stop, all that stops too. The state of my partnership might be crap, but the worst day I’ve ever had working for myself is still better than the best day I had working for someone else.
Can you buy them out? That would be one way to kill the nuisance and find some more joy in what it looks like your self-respect forces you to do.
One yes and the other no. It’s a rather complicated, self-inflicted situation. Cleaning up the mess would definitely raise the joy factor. I’ve been working for awhile to find a mutually acceptable solution but we are at an impasse. So, I can get a bigger bite of the apple but probably never get the whole thing.
Because I have a whole bunch of employees who still like to eat and a whole bunch of customers who love what we do. If I stop, all that stops too. The state of my partnership might be crap, but the worst day I’ve ever had working for myself is still better than the best day I had working for someone else.
Would it be feasible and better to start a new business and let the customers and employees who want to migrate across?
Not in this case. As Jacques notes, there’s the legal barrier but there are also a few other unique factors.
Can you buy them out? That would be one way to kill the nuisance and find some more joy in what it looks like your self-respect forces you to do.
Alternatively, find new partners that are interested in funding the buyout. Post in Who is looking to collaborate and just mention that you are looking for deeper than normal pockets, maybe?
I went this way a couple years back, but one partner is intractable.
I second the "Man’s Search for Meaning" recommendation. That book is great for putting one's struggles into perspective, and emphasizing the importance of a "why."
This book gets recommended a lot probably because it relates to the Holocaust, but it's worth pointing out that "Man’s Search for Meaning" describes itself as "a story". It's not a philosophical book. If you want, you can learn about the development of human thought over time. There is an entire history of philosophy. "Siddhartha" or "The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn" might also relate to the meaning of life but th…
If you get the full edition, there’s a complete discourse on Frankl’s method (designed for the layperson). That said, I found the actual story of his experience far more compelling and much easier to relate to… at least in a way of making any problems I might have seem meaningless by comparison.
Mourning the loss of one’s youth is pretty typical. You lose a step. You didn’t do what you hoped you would do. You wasted your time. So forth and so on. Don’t worry. It gets better. This is all part of the process of life. My recommendation is that you read Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. “He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.” I’m 52 here. I was a prolific programmer in my 20s. A go-go ma…
What if you don’t have any “why”? How would you go about finding one?
Personally, I find it in service and hard, physical work but I think anything that breaks you out of overthinking and just doing can work. Another good book along this line is Shopclass as Soulcraft. Totally different subject but also about finding a why.