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I'd insist on finding a place that has good mentoring. That'd be my primary job-search criteria in your shoes.
Do you do the work?
"We need to ship this on Monday May 11th, so we need you to aggressively plug away on this. You still need to do X and Y. I'm going to put something together with info on how to prioritize the work."
And this after 2 weeks of hiring me, then they say nothing and fire me, without a word, while I'm getting the work done.
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What details would you like to know?
What client goals are you not meeting?
"Given the urgency of the project, and the communication problems, I don't think this is a good first Company project for you. I removed you from the project. So I can make sure you're put in a better position, what's the ideal project for you?"
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What details would you like to know?
- Do you get along with your coworkers? - Where are your shortcomings? - Can you actually program? - Are you misunderstanding requirements?
- I don't know, I feel performance tends to be one of my problems, especially when working under pressure and being stressed / burned.
I hate working under pressure, and when clients have unrealistic expectations. I don't mind deadlines if they are realistic.
- Yes, but I tend to get stuck a lot, I try to solve problems and most of the time I can solve them, but it takes time, and what frustrates me the most is when clients don't understand that writing code takes time, and they insist, several times per day... with emails: "How it's going?" and so on, then they might get rude, etc.
This is what frustrates me the most, unfortunately many managers and clients don't understand that writing code is hard work and when I'm taking more than a week on a task they fire me.
- No, if I misunderstand something I speak immediately.
Have you spoken with a psychiatrist regarding ways to address your concentration problems? Without medication, getting my brain to do what I want it to is like bushing a bolder up a hill. With the proper medication, I gain a lot of control over my concentration.
You will be more appreciated than a "race horse" in a few years from now and you will find your working place easily in any large corporation sooner than you think.
For (a) I would advise asking previous employers (both the manager who made the decision to let you go and former work colleges) for honest feedback. It's difficult to give honest negative feedback, so be clear that you are asking because you are genuinely interested in self-improvement.
For (b), just thinking aloud here, do you have a github repository where you can show us your work? There may be fundamental issues with style, logic etc that could be addressed through training.
Run 3 miles every morning to improve your concentration problems and build confidence. Please try this first.