Earlier quoted context omitted.
CSAM is, by definition, photography or videography of something that has already happened. Therefore, quite literally, doing absolutely nothing about CSAM itself would result in no harm to any child, as the harm has already occurred. Now you're probably going to then cry about incentivising or normalising CSAM - but that's a different argument. And if you then try to argue that the normalisation of CSAM would somehow…
I’ve worked jobs in which I was exposed to this content regularly. It’s disturbing, sometimes extremely so. Just because someone does not abuse a child after viewing this content does not mean the content causes no harm to either individuals or our society at large. I don’t want to live in a world where CSAM is tolerated in order to keep pedophiles satiated.
I do hope you get whatever support you need for something that's apparently affected you. Take care.