That makes a lot of sense and is smart. Very introspective. I want to provide my anecdotal evidence as a counterpoint, with the understanding that weed can trigger anxiety in a really damaging way and it affects everyone differently.
I’m not in a financially stressful situation, but have been under a lot of performance stress in recent jobs. I found the best routine for myself was meetings during the day + whatever coding I could fit.
Where it gets interesting is at night, I would have a Coke Zero for a small caffeine kick and vape a bit of weed - not a lot - and put on some tunes. Then I’d be totally in the zone and code several day’s worth of work in a night. Sometimes even more.
I was praised for high productivity, and got a lot of work done. I don’t do it as often now, trying to maximize my sleep and my current work has more inter-team tension... but overall I get less work done now.
It definitely was a cheat code to enter the zone for a good 4-6 hours at night, and helped me perform at a higher level than I normally would.
Worth noting I wasn’t avoiding anything or using it as a tool for comfort. I think that can blur the line into an addiction or avoidance mechanism that can be harmful.