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Please seek professional help. You might see no point in living, maybe someone can help you see differently.
You're depressed. Clinically depressed. Those things you are feeling are as real to you as your own right hand, but they are lies your "broken" sensors are feeding you. I know perfectly well that it doesn't seem like there is anything that can help right now, but listen to the advice the good people of this place are about to pour out in here and try it anyway. It does get better. It really does. I can say it with ce…
It never gets better, one just becomes used to it and good at managing it.
Nothing is wrong with you. You just need some help: 1-800-273-8255 You are worth it. Please talk to someone. I do every week and it helps. Email in profile if you want to chat but please call the number.
Thank you for taking the time to comment. I am not in the US to call. I am sure we have a number for a similar purpose. I’m reluctant to call - I do not know how it will help. I can imagine all the arguments; why I should be happy. Why I am worthy. I’d been telling them to myself for a long time. I’ve just stopped believing in them.
Nothing is wrong with you. You just need some help: 1-800-273-8255 You are worth it. Please talk to someone. I do every week and it helps. Email in profile if you want to chat but please call the number.
Thank you for taking the time to comment. I am not in the US to call. I am sure we have a number for a similar purpose. I’m reluctant to call - I do not know how it will help. I can imagine all the arguments; why I should be happy. Why I am worthy. I’d been telling them to myself for a long time. I’ve just stopped believing in them.
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Thank you kind soul. I don’t think I am suicidal. My father did that to us when I was 17. I will not do that to my kids. I am just so tired.
Suicide IS hereditary, please get some help! Wishing you the best!
I had a brand new baby though, and every time I felt full of despair, I'd go and hold him for a bit. It helped bring me out, or at least give me a reason to live a bit longer till, my mood swung in the other direction.
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It never gets better, one just becomes used to it and good at managing it.
I don’t know if this is what you mean: I have learned to pretend like I care. To put on a smile on my kids’ birthdays, when deep inside I feel sorry for them. They are so happy now, not suspecting what awaits them when they grow up.
Based on that I want to recommend to you the material of Stefan Molyneux in regards to two of his keywords: self-knowledge and peaceful parenting. He talks about other things too, but I don't mean those in regards to you.
I also do want to qualify my statement thus: I am not referring so much on his main points in regards to those two topics, but more the subtler points he is making.
For example, in peaceful parenting he has an eye on how things are hereditary. It is this detail, how he observes this, that I think is helpful to you. Not so much the parenting topic in itself.
Is it okay if someone broke into your house and harmed your kids really bad. Did this thought get to you? Do you want to beat me up for bringing this? I hope so. Please seek professional help. You might see no point in living, maybe someone can help you see differently.
Just another example of the senseless world we live in.