Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#1

Post by aragorn2 » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:21 PM UTC

I see no point in living. I cannot get myself to do even the simplest things like shaving, taking out the garbage, cleaning the dishes.

I’ve accomplished nothing.

I feel sorry for the two souls I brought into this meaningless world. They will blame me for bringing them into this hell as I blame my parents.

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

Edit:

It’s past midnight here and I have to go to sleep.

Thank you everyone!!!

Thank you for taking the time to comment and help me feel a little better.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#2

Post by darrelld » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:33 PM UTC

National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255

I don't know the extent of what you're going through, but it can always get better.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#3

Post by andymoe » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:35 PM UTC

Nothing is wrong with you. You just need some help: 1-800-273-8255 You are worth it. Please talk to someone. I do every week and it helps. Email in profile if you want to chat but please call the number.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#4

Post by curtisblaine » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:37 PM UTC

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Major_depressive_disorder

Please, please, please consult a professional

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#5

Post by aragorn2 » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:43 PM UTC

darrelld wrote: post #2

National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 I don't know the extent of what you're going through, but it can always get better.

Thank you kind soul. I don’t think I am suicidal.

My father did that to us when I was 17. I will not do that to my kids.

I am just so tired.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#6

Post by aragorn2 » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:49 PM UTC

curtisblaine wrote: post #4

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Major_depressive_disorder Please, please, please consult a professional

Ok that fits me pretty much. I’ve been feeling like this for decades.

Thank you for your comment.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#7

Post by noonespecial » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:50 PM UTC

You're depressed. Clinically depressed.

Those things you are feeling are as real to you as your own right hand, but they are lies your "broken" sensors are feeding you.

I know perfectly well that it doesn't seem like there is anything that can help right now, but listen to the advice the good people of this place are about to pour out in here and try it anyway.

It does get better. It really does.

I can say it with certainty because I've been there, all the way there, and come back.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#8

Post by xkcd-sucks » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 9:57 PM UTC

noonespecial wrote: post #7

You're depressed. Clinically depressed. Those things you are feeling are as real to you as your own right hand, but they are lies your "broken" sensors are feeding you. I know perfectly well that it doesn't seem like there is anything that can help right now, but listen to the advice the good people of this place are about to pour out in here and try it anyway. It does get better. It really does. I can say it with ce…

It never gets better, one just becomes used to it and good at managing it.

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#9

Post by swyea » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 10:00 PM UTC

aragorn2 wrote: post #5

darrelld wrote: post #2

National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 I don't know the extent of what you're going through, but it can always get better.

Thank you kind soul. I don’t think I am suicidal. My father did that to us when I was 17. I will not do that to my kids. I am just so tired.

Suicide IS hereditary, please get some help! Wishing you the best!

Re: Ask HN: What’s wrong with me

#10

Post by aragorn2 » Sun, Jun 10, 2018, 10:01 PM UTC

andymoe wrote: post #3

Nothing is wrong with you. You just need some help: 1-800-273-8255 You are worth it. Please talk to someone. I do every week and it helps. Email in profile if you want to chat but please call the number.

Thank you for taking the time to comment.

I am not in the US to call. I am sure we have a number for a similar purpose.

I’m reluctant to call - I do not know how it will help. I can imagine all the arguments; why I should be happy. Why I am worthy. I’d been telling them to myself for a long time. I’ve just stopped believing in them.