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I really appreciate you sharing your experience. What made you decide to be hikikomori? It's never too late. Tell your parents that you want to change life. Turn their support into something positive. Go out of your house to buy pizza, ice cream, whatever. Get your body moving, the mind will follow. Try to stay in your room without digital devices... for one week. It will clear your thoughts and force you to deal wit…
I wouldn't say it was an active choice, I didn't even known about hikikomori until very recently, but the description fits my lifestyle. I went to trade school and graduated as a network technician/systems administrator, but I never got a job and then time just went on and suddenly I hadn't left my home for years. I wrote in my first post, I'm sad I missed out on so many things in my youth, but sometimes I think the…
I spent so much time trying to follow normal people. I'm not very different from them, but say, a bit too intellectual (not smart, just intellectual) and introverted. There's a part of human relationships, such as, simple fun, banter, exchanging viewpoint, that are extremely tiresome to me (probably because of an issue with non cerebral exchange, friend and love being a lot less easy for me). For a long time I just followed along as the shy guy, 99% anxious/shy mood. I ended up drifting away.
Now since, a few things happened, I almost had a meaningful relationship with a girl; that changed my view of life, people, friendship, partying, lifestyle and work (work became a mean to an end, not just a playground for passion). Unfortunately the relationship crashed for absurd reasons. I'm now back to lonewolf mindset, but not because I can't live like others going out etc but just because the grief took out any desire for me to do so. I understand both viewpoint, my old "hikikomori" self and the new one.
Lastly I have now a lot less value for what others like. It's just their fun, not mine, I don't feel bad for my tastes (feels like coming out :) but I don't feel the need to do what they do. Not that I avoid it, but I'd say I'm just more stable on my feet. The girl I mentioned before also had a similar realization, for many years we often try to fit the mold, for some it works, for others, it doesn't and you realize you're fine doing your own shit.
I understand the "time flies faster", and btw, the few time I go to family reunions or parties, even though I don't like it really, it messes with my brain, it's a burden a bit, but the next day I feel like my brain has been replenished with randomness (others behaviour, stories, feelings) and it slows time somehow.