Tell HN: Burned out and ruined, still trying to end it

Still trying to commit suicide. I tried coding and it was too stressful. Currently homeless and with $10 cash. I keep a rope in my bag. I haven’t been able to overcome fear of death but am set on being dead now.

Someone offered me a good job and offered to help get me a place to live, but I already know it will end badly with near certain probability. Turned it down.

Stay healthy out there, hn.

Nah, amongst dozens of other incidents: Google mocked the suicide of a close childhood friend to me, then put me into a nonconsentual undisclosed matchmaker algo with a schizophrenic felon to discredit me, ostensibly/clearly on behalf of some wealthy folks with google exec connections. Any attempt to seek clarity on this from google has been ignored. I refuse to go forward in a society where ubiquitous technical surveillance is wielded by irresponsible malicious unaccountable entities like Sundar Pichai’s corp.

I was stalked and harassed using my private iMessages during the death of a parent. I refuse to go forward in a society where such coordinated bullying is allowed to occur. America is supposed to be first world but it’s a total shithole filled with low class, unaccountable scum. A lifetime of experience confirms this. Looking at the next generation, American culture will become far worse by 2030, 2040.

I’d rather be dead now.

I’ve been down that road, friend. Thanks.

I’ll drink coffee today with my remaining cash, and I’ll await a response from Google to explain themselves to me.

**Google, you have until today. I tried reaching out to you repeatedly and it’s all fallen on deaf ears. Last chance, scumbags.**

After today when google inevitably doesn’t respond, I’ll know for sure that this society is corrupt. I will be further cemented in my position: this society is doomed and I have zero desire to be part of it.