Cautionary tale for those insisting that psychedelics are 100% safe. You may end up wrecking your brain like this guy.
What to do when you’ve ruined your life
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#62When I was 23, I misdosed myself and took 110mg of 4-AcO-DMT. The experience was EXTREMELY traumatic and I believed I was dying. At one point I was so overstimulated I just lay on my kitchen floor convulsing uncontrollably. The next few days I didn't know what to do. My body would just shake, I couldn't sleep and I stayed up until I passed out for an hour, and then my shaking would wake up myself up again. I was over…
A long time ago, I read an account online of someone who was looking for a new recreational drug experience and they got some risperidone, which is a popular antipsychotic.
(https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=20529)
They took a much larger dose than the normally prescribed amount, and it resulted in a vividly recounted seemingly interminable and utterly hellish experience.
I found it interesting and kind of funny, because we all live in a world familiar with crazy people, casually saying that someone troublesome "should get some help" or if more "empathetic" plaintively ask why nobody is doing anything about the poor untreated and downtrodden wandering the streets.
And yet, it's a shock to a normal (more or less) person to find out that such medications, which are cheap and sometimes effective, are not fun.
For some reason, the idea that "crazy pills" range from unpleasant to unbearable torture depending on dosage doesn't suggest itself as an obvious hypothesis to explain why people who obviously need them won't take them. And it never drives the development of better options.
Even if someone does try it for themselves, their take-away is that it was hell for them because they aren't crazy.
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#63The weird thing is the bulk of our time spent “in a painful experience” is willing participation. The anatomy of a painful experience is stimuli & response. The stimuli are (generally speaking) pretty brief, but you have no say in them. The response is the part where I have wallowed in self pity for months, have screamed myself hoarse into the void, etc.
Recently, sometimes I can’t help but see an optional epicycle wrapped around the whole experience like “ah, pain again. okay, let’s get this over with and get back to what I care about.”
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#64Earlier quoted context omitted.
What are the many and better ways? Social media certainly isn't one of them. Subscription email also shouldn't go to junkmail unless you're doing something very wrong.
Social media profile notifications. Web push notifications. Good ol trusty RSS...
> Social media profile notifications
Requires you to create an account on that specific platform, plus we have a few examples (eg: Facebook, YouTube) where the platform might decide to not notify everyone if the content isn't "worthy".
Edit: And since timelines now are curated by some algorithm, you can't trust it to show you all new content.
> Web push notifications
Abused by many to send you crap, not always easy to keep everything working when moving to another device. It's disabled on my browser.
> Good ol trusty RSS
I like RSS. And this blog offers a feed: https://www.bigfeels.club/public-articles?format=rss
Email... maybe not trendy, but it works okay.
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#65I think the key aspect to overcoming losses resetting Baseline expectations though that you can move forward without overwhelming sorrow and regret.
I think the interesting question is if this is possible in a objective way. A lot of people that I've met rationalize dramatic experience and loss with the idea that it made them who they are, and is there for a net positive. I've heard this from people after suffering lifelong injury or acquiring permanent disease like AIDS.
It seems difficult to accept that it is water under the bridge without rationalizing that it was necessary. I guess from a deterministic point of view, maybe it was
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#66Is it a good thing to ruin your life more than once? I'm still paying the price of not having a structured family (not my fault), not studying when I should, and spending pretty much all my life until I was close to 30 yo doing mostly nothing of substance. It took me serious determination and hard work to close the gap. I did get my diplomas and stuff (and even chose the wrong degree for me), and still takes a toll o…
I took it as meaning "It's a good thing that it's possible to 'ruin your life' more than once because it means you survived the first time and have some experience for the second time." Not meaning "It's a good thing to ruin your life the second time." I think that heading was being unnecessarily clever in order to grab attention, but I don't think the article ever says it's a good thing to ruin your life, ever.
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#67There’s not really advice here but it does speak the truth. In one year both my marriage and my mother died. I’m still here and still surviving. I still have days that feel hopeless, but that really is because fear doesn’t know the future. It makes me feel comfortable saying to myself “Today sucked and was a complete wash. Let’s go to bed and try again tomorrow.”
"Let’s go to bed and try again tomorrow" sounds like the epitome of being human to me. My new mantra.
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#68When I was 23, I misdosed myself and took 110mg of 4-AcO-DMT. The experience was EXTREMELY traumatic and I believed I was dying. At one point I was so overstimulated I just lay on my kitchen floor convulsing uncontrollably. The next few days I didn't know what to do. My body would just shake, I couldn't sleep and I stayed up until I passed out for an hour, and then my shaking would wake up myself up again. I was over…
TIL that not everyone sees TV static and colourful artifacts. I’m glad to hear you are doing well. That is a serious journey.
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Reading this "fee-fees for adulties" article ruined my life. It is obvious that this person still has a great deal of emotional growth and healing to do.
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#70Earlier quoted context omitted.
Yes! If you’ve really screwed the pooch, delete all internet presence and leave the country. No one in Costa Rica will look too deeply into your history. Leave illegally if you have to. Better to start over than many other options. If you’re too fucked for that, like you’re an active pedophile or a SBF figure, there’s another option that I’m not going to mention by name. Some modes of living - bring Derek Chauvin rig…
> there’s another option that I’m not going to mention by name I don't know if you're suggesting one should commit suicide, or if you're talking about something else entirely.
It's suicide. If the only options before you are worse than death, then it becomes more appealing. I think I'd take death over a life sentence.