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Do it. I just did psilocybin for the first time last autumn. It was life changing. Im 37. I didn't learn anything new, but I felt really different and that was the real truth. That I really could just feel different and still be me. I guess it was a perspective on my life that I knew but hadn't felt.
I started my forties with a major health crisis and I can relate. If you want to talk to someone, my email is in my profile. Ultimately though, I had to find other things and live a more balanced life. In my case, my health scare was such that fitness and nutrition became passions. I hope you can find a passion that works for you. It's okay to discover new things, rekindle old hobbies and do things that don't make se…
The only way I keep going is to keep an intellectual and creative pursuit at all times. Currently I'm trying to build a deep understanding of public healthcare system since it's relevant to my life experience, and also learning a new instrument. That seems to get my mind on more important things than how I feel.
Otherwise I just try to accept that this is how I am. Some people are annoyingly bubbly, others grumpy. I'm melancholy.
Specifically, when people use capital letters and an indefinite article to refer to "The Wife" it is also usually time to get a divorce.
If you are covered financially, you can do a long trip somewhere to get a change of scenery and have some self-reflection
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OP is in therapy, where you learn various techniques to manage whatever specific issues you're encountering. What the meds do is make it easier to employ those techniques. So while there is no wonder pill that will solve your issues, in certain cases if used properly they will definitely help. I say this so that OP isn't discouraged from taking drugs because of comments of this variety that say true happiness comes f…
I see this as a pure existential crisis and for that you don't need medication (IMHO). A lot of personalities tie their self-worth to an external measure (like some sort of "success" or whatever) and that could work for almost your whole goddamn life, heck, people can become aggressively successful, feeding that trait, BUT until this external measure dissipates. In case of OP they have admitted that they won't be abl…
Depression can get in the way of finding joy in things, even things you once found joy in. This on top of other symptoms that can contribute to OPs feeling of dread so to speak, such as a lack of energy.
In therapy, you learn techniques to learn to manage this, and meds can help with this. They can have a number of different effects, and some can definitely have a positive effect.
Successfully managing symptoms can free up mind space to actually take action to alleviate the issue, such as your proposal to take inventory of what's actually important and carefully reanalyze and reassess how you're measuring success in life.
I'll end this by making sure it's understood that I'm not saying you can find a magic potion that will cure all your woes. Rather, medication is one weapon in the arsenal that can sometimes work successfully.
Anyway, this is all complicated and evaluated on a case by case basis, so I'm glad OP is actually in therapy.