Holy shit. I was going to make a post about this. When do you realise you're an alcoholic ? For me, it just hit me last week. I'm 25, in the valley, active social life which invariably includes alcohol. But, for the past year and half, I've been averaging 25-30 drinks a week. {I try to stay away from beer after I heard hops can give you manboobs. broscience :)}
But, I also realised, it wasn't affecting my life (denial huh?). It isn't getting getting in the way of work. If I'm too hungover to work, I just call in sick. It hasn't changed me as a person. I consciously try not to break any laws while I'm drunk. (I was surprised how many people have a drink at the bar and hop in to their car and drive away; logic being, "I've just had one drink".) It hasn't affected my health... yet. I'm active, weight train three/four times a week and average 10K steps a day.
I also know I can't do this for long. But, some of the best moments in the past year have been, sitting on my couch, listening to Sinatra/ Cole Porter, relishing a cocktail that I made and just reflecting on life. Just observing the thoughts. There is just something beautiful about that, and I've never been evoke those emotions/feelings when sober.