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It's good to hear that you're fine enough to find some work and that you have help. As someone who has also been through a lot of pain, I find that some of your comments resonate. I feel a positive intention in them even when I don't understand the words. At the same time, a semi-anonymous online forum is not a great place to process major pain. What you need (in my experience) is warm connection with specific people…
I meet people here fine, some people treat me human. But I/we face a trauma 51% attack. Marginality breaks unconscious voting. I am beaten being treated as a child for saying pain while everyone counts pay to be called adult. I have plenty of appropriate help, what I do not have here is an account that survives talking about #Traumahack #Painhack #Centhack without losing my accounts because people use votes to sort f…
So yes, everyone here is focused on money and not beauty and definitely not poetry. This is a cesspit. It is one of the worst online communities there is, and I wouldn't be here at all if I weren't stuck in the web tech sector for at least a little longer.
But you're going to have to accept that if you want to share output here, you're doing so in a hostile environment, not because people don't care, or aren't interested, or aren't loving, but because what they can't understand they're going to downvote. Even if they strip downvotes from the audit log, other comments that say more mundane things will get upvoted more than yours.
Just like I accept that my downvoted comments were mostly a bland stand for anti-authoritarianism no one really wants to hear.