Ask HN: Rejected from nearly every college. What can/should I do?

I'm such a failure. I was supposed to be the one. The first one to do things differently. The first one to go to college. The first one to lead my family out of poverty. Growing up I was bright but I don't know what happened. At the beginning of freshman year, I was two math classes ahead. It's senior year and I'm a class behind. I'm at the point where I'm killing myself of school and not being able to live on to my expectations. Being an immigrant makes things much harder. I have no idea how I'm going to pay for college....if I get into one. Rejection after rejection. 13 rejections so far and 0 acceptances. I couldn't even get into the state school. I suck at taking tests. What is wrong with me?

I'm at the end of my rope. Everything is crumbling around me and I have no idea what to do or who to talk to. I don't care what anyone says but seeing your mom cry fucking hurts. I don't want anyone to see the failure under the hoodie so I don't show my face in class. I guess this is the end.

They say failure is a good thing but when your entire future is on the line, failure is the worst thing to happen to you. I failed. I'm sorry mom. I'm sorry dad. I'm sorry everyone. I failed you. So much for being sober. I hope you can forgive me. I have no idea what to do. I feel like a failure and a disappointment to my parents.

Somebody help me. Please.

If you live in the US then you should look into community colleges that offer transfer degrees. Many offer automatic acceptance into a public 4 year university if you do well enough. PLUS it will save you a ton of money.

First of all, relax. Life isn't about accomplishment. It's about conscious experience. Everyone who isn't Bill Gates, Mark Zuckerberg, or Elon Musk is a "failure" compared to them. And they in turn might be considered failures compared to Augustus Caesar.

If you want to get better at taking tests, then practice them a lot. It's like getting good at chess. Anyone can do it, even people of average intelligence.

As someone else said here, you could first go to a community college and then transfer to a full university.

Go to community college and do really well. I know of people (including myself) who successully transferred to ivy leagues after cc. This is not the end.

You can go to another country were education is free and without exams to get into the university