Obsession

#1

Post by SecretofMana » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 4:15 AM UTC

Obsession
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#2

Post by sidcool » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:01 AM UTC

That came deep from within the heart of the OP. Good luck to him.

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#3

Post by onedev » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:10 AM UTC

Thank you for sharing your feelings OP. I can empathize with you, and wish you the very best.

Sometimes it's great reading how other people feel in these kinds of private situations that happen inside one's conscious.

You can't really discuss them with anyone else so when one person decides to let it all out (as OP did), I think its beneficial to EVERYONE who may have had or still have these kinds feelings/experiences.

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#4

Post by foolrush » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:11 AM UTC

You will do just fine.

The point of education is to set aside the hubris and learn.

You very clearly have.

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#5

Post by cinquemb » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:12 AM UTC

"Cause when I die buddy You know whats gonna keep me warm? Thats right. Those degrees."

- Kanye West

http://rapgenius.com/Kanye-west-school-spirit-skit-1-2-lyric...

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Post by gaussianblur » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:13 AM UTC

This resonated well with myself, another student two weeks from graduating, with similar issues. It helps to remind myself that Rome wasn't built in a day, and trying to do work that usually takes peers weeks in just a single night is just my immaturity coming through.

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Post by rmg7344 » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:14 AM UTC

I've been experiencing the same feelings as well, OP. All we can do is to try to get better.

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#8

Post by seivan » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:15 AM UTC

I did this as well. ADHD explains some of this.

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#9

Post by losethos » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:16 AM UTC

I'm a homo clueless shrink.

New flash, guess who this is?

take_the_day_off creep negligence pleasure startled Angola Far kings cowardice seldomness virgins referred candle Cross mail over-anxiously rightful waters prelate sounds vain grievous Guadeloupe law tend contradict gall slumber woman's sess_me

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Go find God, then come back. You know nothing. Less than nothing.

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Hey shrink? I get respect.

http://stevehanov.ca/blog/index.php?id=56

http://www.templeos.org/images/Machine.jpg

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[–]the8thbit 1 point 21 minutes ago

Fun fact, this guy made his own operating system. No, not Linux distribution. Not UNIX clone. Operating system. With windowing. In his own words:

TempleOS is 64-bit, flat, non-segmented and multi-cored. It's like a modern, souped-up, multi-tasking, cross between DOS and a Commodore 64. It has a C64-like shell with a dialect of C/C++ instead of BASIC. It was written from scratch, and not even ASCII was sacred -- it has 8-bit unsigned character source code to support European languages. Also, the source code has graphics.

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Post by baby » Sat, Apr 27, 2013, 5:19 AM UTC

> I should have put the effort in first and should have only allowed myself to gain confidence through the results that followed.

This is a very powerful ending. I've struggled a lot to change parts of me in the past, but this is my big fight. I, like everyone else, care too much about other's opinion. I base almost my whole confidence on other's people opinion. Others rise me up or take me down. And I've tried to change that to something else. I've tried the "I don't give a fuck", I've tried to be mean... But I think trying to get confident through work is the best way.