Create an account at gigapedia.org and you'll see the extent of books available online for free. It's amazing. It's become my new Amazon for checking out new stuff that I'm not sure if I want to buy. (All yee free market crusaders, don't worry -- I still have a regular truckload of books coming my way from Amazon -- as much as my budget allows.) How unfortunate that my budget can swallow much less than my brain!
its the fate, what we need is to just go with it.
it will carry you the way it wants
as we have a saying in sanskrit
"vidi likithalekani parimastrum na shakyathe