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Depersonalization and derealization are truly awful. Having experienced them for non-psychedelic reasons, it's almost indescribable. Sometimes people say "seeing events in third person". My experience was that my consciousness and actions were completely disconnected from my observations of reality. Like, I questioned whether I had any influence at all over my existence. Basic, predictable events were suddenly uncert…
One wonders if that's how it actually is and the rest is just the brain fooling us into having control by way of rationalizing the actions we were going to do anyway.
Luckily, we an pretty good at being hypocritical. This allows us to learn and think about this stuff while still believing the lies.