I know that there are plenty of people who do that. I am trying to learn what is the best course of action for me.
if it is an universal experience, then trying to change jobs is pointless.
If it is not, then it is possible for me to find something that I won't hate either.
I've been working here for six+ years and in the best of times I just feel that I am wasting my life away. At worst, I was actively suicidal.
Right now, I am living my life on weekends, somewhat exist in a sad state during weekdays.
It does make sense to look for something new while being employed, but I am unable to do that. I end my day exchausted not wanting to touch computer at all. I would need at least a month before I could touch computer again without being in tears for the pain that this thing causes me.
I don't hate tech. I love reading research, I love implementing things. I love doing complex things, I love digging deeper.
It really pains me that I am completely incompetent in any of that. In general, I don't know what should I do next.
If you can give advice, please help.
Thank you.
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