Once I got to a place where I wasn't interested in climbing higher (the stress/dollar isn't worth it for me), I felt a vacuum of inertia.
It's uncomfortable to not be buzzing as that's what I was used to, I associate it with progress and reward.
Without the excuse of upskilling for work, I notice that my scouring and crawling for information is associated with stress in my personal life. It's a something I do to distract myself and procrastinate from dealing with whatever stressor is in front of me.
I have now been trying to focus more on my personal emotional growth and looking for ways I can become a better person. Resisting the allure of distraction and dealing with my stressors head on is hard. I don't have an answer for how to yet, but at this stage I am aware of it and on that journey.
One thing I have come to realise is that life is desperately short and I want to strive to experience it in the best way I am wired to.