Hello,
Enlightened ascendant being here, I have some perspective for you …
In the beginning, there is the discovery of meanings, then the self while at the same time the self relationships with everyone and everything else …
And then, for those aspiring or just damn lucky, a glimmering ray of light penetrates the monotonous gloom.
A meaning beyond self worthy of devotion.
This may rise or fall, be ever lasting or a series of elevated epiphanies, However without question the ultimate fulfillment of existential being is …
TO GO BEYOND SELF
TO BE MORE THAN THE SELF
To make consequences of your life out to be more than the sum of consumptive waste keeping you alive.
This is the ultimate human endeavor.
Btw, your self excellence comes by decades of determination, not a few years here and there.