> comparing a drug to a wheel chair is just ridiculous.
Not every disability is visible. By definition they have a significant impact on someones life, as such there isn’t use for competition.
A wheelchair is a great comparison. Both enable someone to do something they previously couldn’t. Both are temporary, and stop being useful when removed. Both have a very different effect on someone who does not need them.
> I don't want to get addicted to another thing in my life
FWIW, among those I know with ADHD taking stimulant meds, addiction is not a concern but remembering to take them is.
> I don't feel "more like myself" on speed
Do you have a deficit of dopamine, serotonin and norepinephrine? If not you’re experience will be very different from someone who does.
Even then, some stimulants work better for certain people, and for other only non-stimulants work.
Our brains are complex, and our experiences are not universal.
Speed is also a pretty catch all term, and the ratios of salts have a huge impact on the effect. It may not be very comparable to pharmaceuticals.
> I seriously doubt most positive effect would persist after a year of using and rising tolerance.
People have been taking stimulants for ADHD for decades, but I think its effect is not what you think to an ADHD brain. It’s more akin to reading glasses.