Continue to strive out the mud. Continue day in and day out to climb this unforgiving fucking cliff [..]
I know you've done your best.
There's proof.
I now started to maintain a little bliki or digital garden, part journaling, part personal wiki, research and creative expression. I can look at it from a timeline angle or tag angle, tagged collections of rational thoughts and emotional expressions.
Struggle, fear, anger, uncertainty, doubt, jealousy. If only I remember briefly, that I am more. and know deep down I can connect to that which is beyond my own little troubles. Connect to that which inspires me, art, people, peots, my mentors, my friends, current, lost or deceased My "future", ¨"past" or "higher" self or selves They are there, always, in unconditional love, as fans cheering me on.