If you want to avoid SSRIs, you can try ketamine treatment. Should be able to find it in most major cities now. In my city the cash price is about $400/a session and you probably need 2-3 sessions. Pros: if it works you will start to feel better in just a few days, and you only have to get a few 2-4 hour treatments a year. Cons: hard to get insurance to pay for it, SSRI are cheaper. https://www.health.harvard.edu/blo…
Fortunately there are compounded racemic ketamine options in a lot of places, whether troches (lozenges) or nasal spray (that's the one I use). I pay out of pocket fully, and it's $60/month. Clearly YMMV, but worth looking into if the infusions are prohibitively expensive.
It just does something different. But then at home can help maintain in a more muted way. I think it's because a mainline infusion has no top end limit for drip speed, whereas buccal/nasal membranes can only transport so much at a time. There's a few dose charts that basically flatline at the beginning as transport/transporter stuff saturates vs the line which goes sky-high. Also the bioavailability is phenomenal, and it's easier with IV to avoid the dose creep/tolerance/psychological addiction aspects.
That said, IV Ketamine is hella expensive. :'( An $80 Ketamine nasal spray (not even with insurance, just that), can last me for 6 months with weekly lower dose solid session topup treatments. So, ~$12 a month. Less than HBO Max w/o ads. Hell yeah. That's a good price for an effective treatment haha. Both seem to have unique benefits too that I haven't easily gotten wjfb the other.
Just a few thoughts but am sure you're on a similar wavelength too so mostly just sharing! Curious to hear what your thoughts experiences were/are/have been.