For me, meditation started a fundamental shift in how I think about free will, and oddly nobody I've mentioned it to in real life has felt this. I used to feel very in-control of my own mind, but after intentionally sitting and monitoring for thoughts, labeling those thoughts, etc, I became sensitive to how thoughts can really come out of nowhere. You can't predict what you will think next. That strikes a little deep…
Likewise, I've found my exploration of meditation and similar things has left me feeling less in control (in some ways, at least), less "me", and much less of what I expected from the outset. I suppose I expected the inverse, in a way... To feel more grounded, connected, and in touch with myself. Instead it seems I've only found that myself isn't what I thought it was. I suppose the most profound aspect is realizing…
It made me question reality in a way I hadn't before.
Is all of this pre-determined? Is it arbitrary? Is it random? Is there an underlying meaning here we should recognize?
I came to believe that love, connection, existing itself, were all somehow significant. Hard to say if this is real, or just part of the pattern :)