I often yearn for the "unearthly quiet" and structure of a monastic life. I am not religious but I just feel as if I don't belong in society: I don't care about work, jobs, careers, riches, fame. I would like a life of study, contemplation and silence.
I used to live in a communal religious house. Ananda Marga Yoga Society.
Vegetarian kitchen. Meditation room. Some rules. Chill people.
It was nice.
USA culture seems committed to keeping you busy, anxious and offbalance.