>... I'd really like to learn "higher level than highschool" math...
This sounds somewhat abstract, as the math field is vast. If you consider the next level from where you believe your present standing is, I would try to revisit the college-level math which you probaby experienced back in time.
Generally, the textbooks rely on previous knowledge and gradually feed the new concepts, including the math notation as needed in the new scope.
I find it easier to get the feel for the notation by actually writing it by hand. Indeed it's just an expression tool. Also, you may develop your own way of making notes, as you go on dealing with math-related problems.
But in the core of this you are learning the concepts and an approach to reasoning. Of course, for this path to have any practical effect, you would need to memorize quite a bit, some theorems, some methods, some formulas, some applications. Internalizing the notation will help you condense all of that new knowledge.
Picking a textbook for your level is all that is needed to continue the journey!