I'm really running out of patience with this whole thing. I'm being paid $25/hr to sit around and look busy. I ask my manager for work, he says things will pick up after Christmas. The other day I was too depressed about this situation and slept in, and showed up at 1pm. No one batted an eyelid or said anything. There wasn't a single email addressed to me, I had no calendar invites, no nothing, so why should I even be here? What do I do with my time? Well, I am trying to teach myself a bit of Ruby on Rails in AWS, do some freecodecamp (I desperately want to learn to code, under the impression that it will liberate me from this, but it might just be a pipe dream).
My manager told me that a coworker would like my help with "business continuity forms" (this is healthcare IT, so this is a thing). I've approached her and reminded her that I'm happy to help whenever she wants but she just grumbles about not being able to find someone to walk me through the EpicCare web app things.
So I am really losing my motivation to keep learning important things, and find myself drifting over to Reddit memes. I spend about 3-4 hours a day on this site and the rest of the time trying to teach myself computer science stuff. But it is extremely demoralizing doing this alone and "secretly" while waiting for something to happen.
I would look for a new job but frankly, I don't even know if this experience is transferable anywhere else. I get declined for internal job postings, so I think I just need to turn my 6 months' experience into a year to appease HR. Please advise.