Anyway, if working with computers is where you find meaning, great, but if you're going to break into shit, at least have the balls to own it instead of professing it's nothing more than curiosity, and throwing out the old "I blame society" trope like you're Charlie Manson. Because A) You're not even as ambitious as he was, and B) It's lazy & wussy in both cases. I keep thinking of this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYItTxqTc38 "I went to your institutional learning facilities!" (Get red pen, cross out 3 words, write "schools" and a note: "Be concise. You sound like a cop.")
Everybody smart has to deal with all the same things. One of the benefits of going to a nice college is that you're around other smart people. Not because it's nice, but because it's humbling. All the twerps who were the smartest in their class in the town of West Assingville, quickly find out that they're just one among millions, and not even that stellar. So, hopefully you'll do something worthwhile with what you've got. Teach others maybe.