One thing that worked for me was to have a
community of fellow mathematicians to study with. There's a lot of cultural stuff that is kind of hard to osmose from books, such as for example, how to
pronounce things that you read.
Mathematical notation is meant to be read out loud. It's shorthand for English, or whatever your natural language is. You should be comfortable seeing a sigma sign and thinking in your head, "the sum as ehn goes from one to infinity of eff of ecks squared times ..."
That's just the basic part of it. There's lots of cultural shorthands that are just kind of osmosed, seldom overtly acknowledged (for example, the precise meaning of "without loss of generality"). Maybe you can acquire them by watching videos, but if you can find people that you can hang out with that can teach you the cultural aspects of mathematics, that would help a lot. Picking up a book and reading and working through it and understanding it gets a lot easier once you have the culture down.