Ask HN: Having emotional breakdown

I am a student in an undergraduate programme from India just turned 21. I dont have many friends and mostly a loner in college who always feel shy to talk and kind of introvert. I was a good student till first year and then things started to fall apart from second year. I always felt that I was not guided properly and even the professors themselves dont know anything in India.

My grades were horrible for two years and that was like so demoralising that I lost my self confidence even nore. Being shy at college also did not help and even some good for nothing teachers gave me a hard time; I fell completely lonely, even the motivation which was from visiting HN and other sites is fading. Not even remember any single piece of achievement and appreciation in these two years and always feel like dropping out of college. I now think I am going on right path but still college and the people phobia keeps haunting me. Never have I had a clear mind; the minute I start studying I get emotionally down by remembering any fscking embarrasing situation I had. I have never consulted my problem this deeply to anyone in college. The fact that I let go couple of years that could had made me more confident in python programming is making me feel worse. Need some good advice that will not let me look back on my shitty past?

1. Go talk to someone. This is mandatory. Psychologist or psychiatrist.

2. (I don't know if this is applicable or not but) drinking will not help.

3. More people than you can possibly imagine have been where you are. (The noisy "everything is fine" group has a large subset of liars and people suffering -- like you -- are silent. Skewed sample set).

4. It will not always be thus. The tide goes out, the tide comes in. Wait for the tide to come in. But in the meantime start talking to someone.

a few times

Are there student groups you could join?

I would say be out of internet for few days...And interact with fellow students & people directly