I'm not presently going through exactly what you went through - but I can relate on many levels. I've been on and off anti-depressants since I was sixteen, and I'm 33 now. My self-confidence has been basically destroyed, and I've kind of been just a shell of a human being ever since middle school. I've never figured myself out, and I've never felt like I've had time to, or the space and energy. I've been in and out o…
Best of luck to you as you make these changes. Your journey is yours alone to make, so don’t take this advice but rather an anecdote. When I was able to better understand what I valued in life (which is also constantly changing) I was able to find a lot more peace in my day to day life. I do what I value. I avoid what I do not. Much of what I value comes with challenges, pain, and difficulty, but because I value it t…
I really do value that feedback. I have also stopped using almost all forms of social media. I can't drop twitter - but that is because I value a lot of the content I read there (mostly related to game development).
I've also learned that I need to focus on what is important to my health, and less, on what is important to others.
These are hard lessons for some individuals to learn. It's amusing - because very much of my behavior is self-centered.
I think the key lesson I've learned throughout my continual growing process, is that thoughtless compassion and service to others, grants you the ability to also be compassionate towards yourself.
Living in your problems, hating life, focusing on negatives all the time, wraps your head around your own negativity and dissatisfaction with life.
It's a fine balance that needs to be maintained, and it's easy to slip up in that regard, but I think it's also critical in healing and recovery.
And even then - living this and thinking it, are two totally different things.