Throwaway for obvious reasons.
I'm a "gen Z" (born in the late 90s) and discovered porn early. I think it messed up my priors about sex because when I lost my virginity (I was 15/16) it was disappointing. Had a half-dozen partners since then, and it only got worse. I was always doing my best so that the girl had a good time but was extremely bored. Then I started watching porn a lot more and became further disinterested by sex. My life at University got rough, lost friends, anyway at this point I think I got addicted. I was masturbating 8/9 times a day to the point of my genitals hurting. I got ADHD meds which also helped fuck up my reward system.
Then I realized I had ED. Told my physician and she gave me the "blue pills". Now I always have one in my wallet. I can't do anything without. I never have orgasms with girls. I just pretend to have a good time, try hard to please, and get on with it. I'm 100% certain that my ED is caused by some damage I did on myself when masturbating compulsively.
Worst thing is that I can't talk about it to anyone. It's just so ridiculous and I'm pretty sure it's only downhill from there. I fucked up. I'm in my early twenties and rekt. It blows and honestly makes me sad. I'm not even sure if I'll be able to ever have kids.
To the people with kids here: please protect them, seriously, I had too much freedom way too early... my parents were busy and they meant well but I wouldn't wish what I'm living on anyone. There is so much potential for harm out there