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Given what I started and how I've been thinking, maybe "aware". Being aware of what's happening around me, of the thoughts I have, of the progress I make, doing the mental process of noting things rather than being passive about what's going on. Does that make sens?
Yep, definitely makes sense! I guess it’s similar in meaning to if you chose “conscious” or “present”...?
Maybe, but I see "aware" as noticing things external to myself as opposed to "conscious" or "present" where it has a more spiritual, intra-personal meaning.
Or maybe I'm not understanding the terms the right way as I'm not a native English speaker and may put concepts and meanings from my native language into these terms.