I was hoping to find out what a "magnitude 8" burnout actually looks like, but I didn't get it from this article.
What made his mentor ask if he was okay? What does low energy mean for this guy? What came between the realization and the recovery?
For me it was burying myself in social media, reading books, and binging pirated TV shows. I had a pattern of beating myself up internally for not going out and making friends, taking on or finishing projects, or even doing basic tasks like laundry and cooking. When the voice of self abuse started - usually the moment after my partner left the room, but sometimes even before that - I'd whip out my phone instantly to quieten it. Many days I'd sit at the kitchen table for five or six hours, scrolling feeds and watching shows, waiting for my partner to come home and give me enough motivation to pretend to be human for a while.
I kept thinking, how can I be stressed? All I'm doing is sitting in the kitchen. There's no stress here.
But I was living in someone else's house in a country where I had few friends and didn't speak the language. I had just started a new, remote job which was mentally demanding, and had no one, not even co-workers, to talk to about it. I stopped stopped doing my two healthiest activities - writing and cycling - except on rare occasions.
I got to the point where I left the relationship, and went home- though I didn't want to- because I couldn't recognize myself at all anymore and didn't know how to get back to myself except by returning to the last place where I felt like a human. I'm two months into recovery now and have only just gotten to the point where I can sleep through the night, sometimes.
That's what it looked like for me. Hope it helps someone else realize what that feeling is. It took me way too long to recognize it, and by then it was too late.