Ouch, right in the feels, I've been working on https://buildyourownlisp.com in my spare time. (EDIT: I was looking for a name for the repo, YABLisp it is.)
> coding in C is a welcome therapy after seemingly wasting years exploring various ways of pretending the hidden complexity in my stack was someone else's problem
I've noticed several older talented programmers express similar feelings. I was watching Casey Muratori's Handmade Hero stream, where he writes a game in C from scratch, and he said, I don't know who would watch this except aging C programmers.
I'm less than 30 but I already feel like an aging C programmer. Most OOP seems like a morass; I've switched to writing my own projects in C and my prototypes in C-like Python. But I wonder what hope there is for people like us in the industry, which seems to be moving ever further away from this type of programming.