Growing up, my grandfather tried to instill two major ideas in me and my siblings. The first being that perfect was an impossible goal, only achievable under artificial circumstances. Secondly, that practice makes permanent, so be mindful of what you're practicing. The first part always seemed reasonable, but I have had a lot of trouble with the second part. I recently gave up playing golf when I finally realized I h…
You should read The Inner Game of Tennis. Actually I think there's a version about golf as well. That book has been a life changer for many people and it is exactly about what it seems you have been experiencing.