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I had a (medication induced) experience similar to the author's, with similar perception of radical changes in the motivations/intentions of my coworkers and friends, but mostly I remember it being like bright light was turned on in a dim room, my new awareness of others emotions changed a lot of my assumptions about their thoughts, the effects lasted a few days. I'd rather be more in tune with reality, if new techno…
TMG had a similar effect on me after taking it for three months. The effect was repeatable for others in my extended family. The effect initially was a very intense feeling of being connected with everyone. The intensity faded over time but the effect still remains. For example I actually enjoy small talk. After some reaearch I believe that TMG facilitates the breakdown of tonic dopamine (background dopamine outside…
What It’s Like to ‘Wake Up’ from Autism After Magnetic Stimulation
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#152I wonder how sexual development happens in autism. In terms of emotional connection it's a pretty central and strong source.
No biggie. I've a partner, am employed and happy. Kinky too as far back as I can remember. It certainly made for a different kind of sexual development in my teens and early twenties. There was some sense of frustration and disappoint as I couldn't fathom how my sexual trajectory had become so misaligned to that of my peers. It was just different enough that I'd considered I might be the only one so kept quite about it. It took a while longer (post university) to realise there were plenty of others with similar interests.
On occasion I've bumped into or met/seen some professional peers (same research interest) in these settings. Slightly unsettling to say the least from a practical point of view as I could end more directly working with any of these people in the future. I've felt such incidents are difficult to put down to coincidence.
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>I have a friend who is an energy healer. I personally think that kind of thing is nonsense, but her origin story makes me pause. With a username like yours...? Or is it much more quantized drum machine and less anything else?
Many, many years ago I used to perform in a group that combines drumming and dance - http://www.popmatters.com/feature/jellyeye-030610/
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There is a really deep question of when does abnormal become a problem, a sickness, or a disability. For example, homosexuality is rare and decreases the chance of having direct descendants. But would that qualify as an illness or a sickness? In some parts of the world being homosexual can result in a significantly reduced qualify of life, but is that a problem with the person or with society? Now switch homosexualit…
> For example, homosexuality is rare...decreases the chance of having direct descendants The gene for male homosexuality is actually propagated via over-fertility in females with the gene (i.e. gay guys' sisters have more children to compensate). So, reduced direct descendants yes, but reduced passing on of genes no. > Now switch homosexuality for some far less socially acceptable...How does things change? That invol…
Note that I also said we can avoid this by only looking at other animals where notions of consent don't apply. Ideally psychology should realize that consent is a human abstraction.
>I agree that there is a point at which abnormality becomes illness - my (draft) definition is drawn when the abnormality causes pain (especially chronic pain), or early death.
Look at honey bees again. How much longer could individual drones live if they didn't sacrifice themselves for the colony. But wouldn't selfishness be a big problem for the colony as a whole? We cannot optimize on either the individual nor the colony to determine what is a mental illness.
Also, consider issues of causing pain to others. Every animal that eats meat causes pain to the victim it consumes. But that is clearly normal behavior.
And I'm sure we can find other examples of things that cause pain to self or others which we would find normal.
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> I have a friend that is an energy healer. ... I find myself torn when friends say things like this to me. I feel that such religious beliefs are overall harmful to my friends and leaving them unchallenged allows believers to promulgate that horse shit to others. On the other hand true believers seem to be so invested in these beliefs that they would be psychologically harmed by any debate that would be strong enoug…
What's so strange about it? It's some kind of yoga massage social relaxing procedure embedded in harmless ritual fluff with words like 'light' 'energy' 'love' and rainbows and even sometimes 'quantum-entanglement' - you should be excited. Energy healing also undoubtedly involves the wonder of energy. If it feels good to people, then it heals, so what is the horse shit problem here? Do they want you to sacrifice seven…
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#156So, funny that on hacker news and lots of programming blogs when this topic comes up a lot of people chime in about being on the (autistic side) of the spectrum too. Ironically, I feel left out. I am on the other end of the spectrum. Kind of like what this guy described after the treatment, although I've been dealing with it my whole life, so I don't get all worried. I feel like the only programmer who is intensely a…
How interesting. I'm learning about healthy emotional boundaries. In the past there have been times I've been so synced up with another person's emotional state I thought their emotions were my own! Practicing dialing down my sensitivity has been a big help.
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TMG had a similar effect on me after taking it for three months. The effect was repeatable for others in my extended family. The effect initially was a very intense feeling of being connected with everyone. The intensity faded over time but the effect still remains. For example I actually enjoy small talk. After some reaearch I believe that TMG facilitates the breakdown of tonic dopamine (background dopamine outside…
Wow. you just gave me the rights clues to a theory I have about myself and childhood and stuff.... "learned Aspberger's" if you will. Can you post more, please?
It was surprising to me that these tonic neurotransmitters have an active role in the brain. Their random activation of receptors on the receiving neuron make it more sensitive, putting it on a hair trigger if you will. The random activation of auto-receptors on the sending neuron inhibit further neurotransmitter release. And when these tonic neurotransmitters diffuse out of the synaptic cleft they can sensitize other neurons nearby or even trigger cell death (in the case of glutamate)
The way that I like to think of it is that a phasic neurotransmitter carries an immediate signal while a tonic neurotransmitter carries a longer term record of phasic activity.
MAO and COMT are two important enzymatic pathways for enzymatic degradation. MAO degrades norepinephrine, serotonin and dopamine while COMT degrades norepinephrine and dopamine. COMT operates by attaching a methyl-donor to the neurotransmitter which is donated by SAM-E. With some consumer grade genetic testing I discovered that I had a defect in betaine homocysteine S-methyltransferase (BHMT) which is one pathway to recycle SAM-E. Supplemental TMG, also called betaine, simulated more BHMT activity for me.
My guess is that lower levels of SAM-E had the effect of elevating tonic dopamine and norepinephrine relative to serotonin by plugging one of the drains.
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TMG had a similar effect on me after taking it for three months. The effect was repeatable for others in my extended family. The effect initially was a very intense feeling of being connected with everyone. The intensity faded over time but the effect still remains. For example I actually enjoy small talk. After some reaearch I believe that TMG facilitates the breakdown of tonic dopamine (background dopamine outside…
Wow. you just gave me the rights clues to a theory I have about myself and childhood and stuff.... "learned Aspberger's" if you will. Can you post more, please?
In the popular press dopamine was known as the pleasure or reward neurotransmitter because of its associating with drug addition but with new research that view is slowly changing. While drugs like cocaine or meth produce euphoria research has also shown that dopamine is also released in response to unpleasant stimuli like stubbing your toe or the near miss at the roulette table. My view, which is shared by some researchers, is that dopamine is primarily involved with the salience, or whats important, about an object or situation.
For example, walking down the street the sudden appearance of an aggressive dog or stumbling on gold coin would trigger the release of dopamine and norepinephrine. The release signals to the rest of the brain that something important has happened and to pay attention (focus). The release also simulates memory formation and learning and it makes us slightly less empathetic. It also deactivates sensory suppression and makes us more aware of our surroundings and puts puts movements on a hair trigger. All of which probably facilitates survival.
However in my case the compromised ability to break down dopamine and norepinephrine via the COMT pathway left that system always on. While this contributed to some of my strengths only retrospectively do I now recognize that there were downsides. Enhanced memory formation and learning also means never forgetting and intrusive thoughts in vivid detail an awkward social situation a decade ago. Heightened sensory awareness means that you can't filter out somebody tapping in the next cube or unfamiliar clothing. Twitch like reflexes compromise fine motor skills (like handwriting). And while reduced empathy can help slice through the politics to "do the right thing" it is pretty much a downer in every other way.
Looking back there are also some other things that I can now see with more clarity. I believe that the brain uses the relative levels of tonic dopamine versus tonic serotonin to measure the levels of wanting (or desire) versus getting (or consummation) which I think is the brains proxy for social status. My compromised COMT pathways resulted in my perception of always being subordinate in any work or social situation. Other than the obvious it has some other subtle side effects including an exaggerated sense of justice and rapid escalation of a perceived threat. This seriously hampered career advancement for a long time because it ruled out a leadership role to other people.
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Such a broad question doesn't admit of an easy answer, but if I was going to put in a single sentence I'd say dating was hell but sex is fine. No idea whether autistic people are more or less prone to be into kinky sex but my hunch is more.
What about simpler affectionate interactions ? dating and sex were already way beyond what I had in mind. Autism impossibility of emotional interaction would be at odds with simple hugging. And in my view, hugging is a prototype of sexual relationship (pure pleasure sex left of the discussion).