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I’d like to thank everyone for the support and advice! Your kindness alone made me feel better. You’ve also given me motivation to continue the fight.

Thanks. I will look in to it - sounds interesting

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Thank you for your comment. That is absolutely true. I have excuses for everyone except for myself. Intellectually, I realize that, but it’s difficult to fight it. My therapist is …

Thanks. Religion isn’t my cup of tea.

1. I dread that but it may be one option 3. What do you mean by system design? 5. Not in the US. Here everyone pays taxes and when you retire you get some small pension (a lot of s…

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Thanks for the links. I will look into them.

Thank you. Yeah I’ve got mortgages and kids. And you are right I do sell myself short sometimes. But on the other hand, there is a lot of young (cheaper) talent on the market that …

Yes, I am willing to relocate. I will try updating my cv and apply for some positions abroad.

It’s “no” on all of them except hobbies - I do have one (but it’s fairly recent). Thanks for this. I guess the common thread in all of that is connecting with others. I’ve always b…

I’m sorry about your condition. Compared to that, my problems are insignificant. I try from time to time to code something... I’ve been learning F# lately. I force myself to sit in…

Thank you for sharing this

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I live in a small town, in a small country. If I tried locally the word would get out. I could apply in a different country. I guess I’m afraid of proving myself right that I am in…

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Thank you. I get anxious around people. For example, every time I get out of the house I have to prepare mentally. Going to the market store I have to go through possible scenarios…

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I don’t know what to say. You are absolutely right. What makes me even more anxious is the life my kids are going to have. How do I teach them to avoid the slavery when even I’m no…

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Thanks. Several people recommended cold showers or swimming in cold water. Guess it doesn’t hurt to try.

Thank you! I’ve started seeing a therapist. We’ll see how it goes.

Thank you. This is true. I’ve stopped using all social media (except HN) a year ago. Not sure about HN. Sometimes I read interesting things. Sometimes it makes me anxious and depre…

Thank you. I have been drinking more lately. I guess I should stop. I find it hard to enjoy anything. I was thinking about why is that. I found I don’t like myself at all and I gue…

I always feel like I’m wasting time and should be learning or trying to find another job. Then I start thinking about what to learn, what could I possibly do, since the domain know…