So I started new life, new country, new degree, new profession.
I graduated (again) and started to work.
In the last 10 years I developed tons of software and "solutions" in startups and corporate:
- mobile apps
- backend
- cloud infra
- ML solutions
- Data solutions
Across those 10 years and several companies, thousands of commits, sometimes sleepless nights only in two instances the software that I (and my various teammates) wrote was actually somewhat used:
- small parsing b2b service, only one b2b client used it regularly. I did not even initially developed it, but rather extended.
- a data pipeline for a sales dashboard, which some employees look at from time to time. I also just mostly migrated it, not initially developed it.
I went to the last company, which has insane client base and helps millions of people (really helps), with the hope I can be somewhat useful, but to no avail.
Life is perfect: I have a great salary, I live in a very good country, I have a house, social circle, loving family, job security, great work-life balance, remote work, interesting technical problems that keep my brain stimulated.
But why am I so unhappy?