Earlier quoted context omitted.
I don't think anything has hurt me as much emotionally in my career as working at a really great place as my first job, setting my expectations for the next ten years of my career to be anything like that, and then get curb stomped over and over again by mediocrity that thought it was objectivity or responsibility. Trying to mold people who did not want to be molded resulted in a lot of Pyrrhic victories.
i too remember my first company very fondly and wonder if there is some cognitive bias at play
It's nice here, and the people including management are great.
But I feel I should probably move on for the sake of my career progression, but I'm scared to leave and find myself somewhere worse.