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This is a risk that many psychonauts seem unwilling to accept. Hope you're doing okay. That anxiety is something that's almost impossible for people to understand if they haven't experienced it.
I'm doing okay. You are right, it's a very vulnerable and almost inevitable feeling, like I've been shown who I "truly" am inside, something that I only accessed directly during that trip, but which exists below the surface all the time. Which obviously cycles heavily back into the anxious feelings. I've never really put this experience in to words before, reading it back maybe it's time for me to try something other…
However, 30 years later I have understood it and am very full and compete due to this process.
I think what is scary is that it takes us from unknowing children into fearful adults without the skills to self reflect in a way that we can heal ourselves.
High quality therapy with a sound and grounded therapist really helped me. Beyond words actually.
It is easy to blame the trip but it isn’t the trip. We can alter ourselves, or the way we react to things.
Hope you make some progress.