You're desperate. That's good. Desperation built this world. It's the number one motivator of life. Desperation mixed with insecurity can seem like depression, but if you're really depressed, out of money and with limited prospects. It's time to go ask someone for help. Alternative ideas: Can you make money on bug bounties? Can you apply to local universities for tutoring? Can you do some gig work just to chip away a…
> Desperation built this world. It's the number one motivator of life.
I am fairly skeptical of the claim that "desperation built this world" as a rationalization for why desperation is good. Human actions built this world. Desperation may or may not be a motivator for actions, but if it is, it does not even seem to be the main motivator. Humans also build things because they want to solve their problems, help others, or even just because they want to build things for the sake of building things.
Desperation also leads to crime, violence, suicide and many other bad things that destroy this world.