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> stems from living a life that is not true to myself and due to countless failed attempts to be someone I cannot never be. If this is their mindset, they might benefit from CBT more than medication. I'm not against SSRI at all. But after taking them for a few months in my 20's, and experiencing how terrible the withdrawal symptoms are when stopping, I'd be very hesitant to ever start up on them again. I remember hav…
I'm the GP of this comment chain. I actually did a 16 week long trial of CBT with a professional where my symptoms were tracked during each week. I actually ended the 16 weeks worse than before I started. I later learned that CBT can have that effect on people with ADHD, so I attribute that to being a possible explanation. I still do therapy, but honestly, I think it's a waste of time and money. I predominantly do it…
I think I had a somewhat similar experience: before antidepressants, I was practically non-verbal; later, I had the typical brain fog/emotional blunting -- still unable to communicate with the therapist; after adjusting to meds, by the time that I can put the problem into a coherent sentence, I can usually fix it anyway, so what is the therapist for? Is it really just rubber duck debugging, where the duck has a medical degree?
One thing I wasn't able to figure out was ADHD -- I didn't really believe I had it, as my psychiatrist was sure it's not the problem -- everything was explained with depression/anxiety/geniune lack of motivation. Now that I finally have a prescription for stims, seems like it was the other way around: most of the time I would have a feedback loop where my typical fuckups would trigger a downward spiral, and it's almost not a thing anymore; being able to get shit done is just generally such a pleasant experience!
TLDR My depression also wasn't a "true depression" in a sense, but you still need to fix some underlying issue, which is much easier when your thoughts are not all "I'm a failure" shaped