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I used to be amazed wondering how people claimed to work 12 hours a day until I realized they consider writing emails and talking to people on the phone work (which it is). But of course me being a software engineer I imagined for some reason when they said work they meant something like coding which after 6 hours has me drained.
after doing a few kinds of jobs: - food retail: producing hundreds of sandwiches an serving hundreds of customers back to back, teaches you about productivity - landwork: 8000 picks per day teaches you about work maybe i'm masochistic, but whenever I see people relaxed at work, neither doing much nor thinking much, I consider it's not work. There's no difference between what they do and me at home chilling.
After six hours of typey-typey in front of a screen I feel used up. Worthless. Dead. And that's a very good day—four is more typical for "how long can I do computer work before I just want to curl up and do nothing until I fall asleep?". I mean four hours of actually working, mind you, not screwing around, but still.
I know for a fact I don't have a general work ethic problem that prevents me from going past 4-6 hours of computer work in a day—I have a "this particular shit—computer shit—sucks the life out of me like nothing else" problem. Always been that way, even when I was young. Work? I'll do it 'till I drop and feel good about it. Computer work? Uuuuugh, if I have to, I guess, but I'll hate it the whole time and feel like shit when I'm done, which, BTW, won't take long.
But, anything I could do that wouldn't involve sitting in front of a computer much of the day would mean a 60+% pay cut, so... here I am.