//I really need the money and security plus having faang in my resume opens doors, i have seen it in my current organisation where they hired ex faang tech leads and they are considered the best of the best by everyone. These are the only reasons I am willing to put up with this.//
Basically you want Ex-FAANG stamp on your profile. Have you thought through this? Can you try five why questions and get to the bottom of your REAL desire in life? There is youtube Technical Lead where guy cries I am Ex-Facebook, Ex-Google and Ex-Husband etc. Lot of Exs. My point is moon has two sides. One is bright and another is you know. By the way you need start working on writing to clear your mind and bring more critical thinking of your own. Do not follow popular opinion. Even take this comment not on face value. I know how you feel. I struggle same kind of stuff - just mine is related to girls. Any way good luck there.