I feel the same way, kinda...
I'm male, and not a PoC, so perhaps maybe my perspective is different?
I'm told that I'm privileged, but that's not how I feel.
I'm told due to systemic bias that I'm probably unaware of my privilege, but I feel well aware of all the disadvantages I've actually experienced. And yet I'm open minded to exploring the way I could be oblivious to other people' problems.
I'm not sure if I'm actually the bad guy, or if I'm being gas lighted.