I was just about to create a new account anyway and my stephangaphy evidently is uncorrelatable, so may as well signoff with a likely-in-vain AMA:
Ask a daily Fentanyl user/addict anything?
Irony.
The kids trying to play it safest are the ones who end of dying.
A friends 5mg Percocet or 7.5 Vicodin Pills feel nice. Not really the first time, but the second? You're a little happier. a somehow pure, happy blissful moment. pure satisfaction. the world is exactly as it should be - youre at a party in high school! and youre doing the cool stuff!. things change slow, sometimes fast. depends on the money involved, and where and how the pills originate. but once they originate, they are analogous to a social endemic.
Pills feel nice, but they do eventually creep up, financially and tolerantly and socially, until you really need that one girls brother to be at KMart by 5:50 or your stomach will hurt Tuesday. All friendships are simply transactional, ledgers of who gave who what when, and, but "she owed me!"? But those people are dead now, because they were smart, and better. The were just doing medication. They weren't doing actual, yanno, _drug_ _drugs, like heroin or meth. Only dumbasses did that.
The dumbasses like myself - we did the math - the $dollar per / dopamine! we werent the dumb ones. Why buy 4x Perc30s for $60e each to barely feel a nod when a $5bump of H will do that and more....But we were the rest able to ride the dovetails of the last bit of domestic heroin import. Because of that, our tolerance and slow unremarkable experience and slow taper into being Fent intake saved the ultimate mortal moment, and prevented our inevitable unexpected encounter with the substance being our last mistake - yet.
Do I get high anymore? Only because I went without, and got relief. Sometimes my eyes feel droopy, or the two top most contexts in my stack of a RAM were just swapped, leading me uncontrollably to say something I was thinking about a moment ago.
Did I ever get high? Surely this year of continuous, continual odding had to be enjoyable.
I didn't do that math too accurately recently - felt too good for too long. Better refrain slightly tomorrow. Lest a lapse - and we can't have that, can we?