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I am a professional in the information technology field, which is to say a pedantic extremist who believes that words have meanings derived from consensus, and when people alter the meanings, they alter what they believe. Using "thinking", "feeling", "alive", or otherwise referring to a current generation LLM as a creature is a mistake which encourages being wrong in further thinking about them.
I'd suggest spending more time studying words to relive your extremism. The meanings of words move incredibly quickly and a tremendous number of words have little to no relation to previous meanings. Words such as nice, terrific, awful, manufacture, naughty, decimate, artificial, bully... and on and on.
Should one study words to relive extremism? Or should one study words to relieve extremism?
To a doctor of linguistics: "Dr, my extremism... What should I do about it - with words?!? Please help."
That is the question.
Does the doctor answer thusly: "Study the words to relive the extremism! There is your answer!" says he.
or does he say: "Study the words to relieve and soothe the painful, abrasive extremism. Do it twice daily, before meals."
Sage advice in either case methinks.