Ask HN: I am programmer, i wan't to die, what can i do?

your first sentence is an incredibly irresponsible way to respond to this question. I know that you think you are trying to be funny or lighthearted, but that was not the way to respond to this post.

Death seems like the best way out of an unbearable position. You're intelligent; you've analyzed the options the best you can; you can't find anything else. I've been there. I'm bipolar, type 1. I think I may know what you're going through.

Realize that life doesn't have to be this way and that there are things that you can do to make it better. Realize that you're not able to make full use of your intelligence in the state you're in. You need help making choices and analyzing your situation. Professional help.

Talking to a psychologist and being treated by a psychiatrist turned my life around. Again, I'm bipolar, so my condition may be more permanent than yours. Remember, taking medication isn't a sign of weakness. Many people only need to take it to get out of their current rut and then cast it off as soon as they see the light of day. I was against taking medication for a long time. But then I realized that brain tissue can be diseased just as any other bodily tissue can be diseased.

Something else that helps is to interact with your loved ones more: friends, family, anyone who you love and who loves you too. Talk to them. Let them know what's going on in your life. If you don't have anyone like this in your life, I'm sorry. This may be contributing to your suicidal thoughts.

As others have said, a good diet, exercise, vitamins, and plenty of fresh air and sunshine go a long way.

These are things that will help long term and will probably keep you from returning to this state. But, first, you need radical intervention.

Make an appointment with a therapist. Today. Be completely open with them. Do as they say. Don't think you're smarter than they are. Remember, right now you're not capable of using your mind to its full capacity. You're sick. Let a professional help you. Right away.

Even if you aren't going to commit suicide right now or in the near future, try to get professional help as soon as possible. Suicidal urges is very alarming sign.

Remember, your problems are temporary, your pain is temporary. It shall pass.

For more practical advice, I will quote myself from another recent HN thread: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=5575144

"There are great books by David Burns: "Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy" and "When Panic Attacks". Both are available at amazon kindle: http://amzn.com/0380810336 and http://amzn.com/076792083X The "Feeling Good" book is focused primarily on depression issues and "When Panic Attacs" (as its name suggest) on various anxiety disorder. I suggest to read them both. They are really helpful, but not just because of their content(which is good), but because they present of number techniques from Cognitive-Behavioural Therapy, which you can apply on yourself. But please note that reading the book and using these methodics is order of magnitude more effective than just reading the book and internalizing its contents."

I advice you to get these books(if you don't have kindle devices - don't worry - they have cloud reader so you can read them in your browser), and read them. They are not a replacement for professional treatment in cases like yours, but they may help, and they are easily obtainable.

This is not meant as a solution, but it might help you enjoy one or two days more than usual.

Do something on purpose, that you normally wouldn't do. For example, go volunteer at a fire department. Take a different route home from work. Go hiking. Whatever you think would help.

Experts agree that one of the best things that can make someone happy is deliberate activity. Do something you normally wouldn't do, on purpose. Could help even more if that activity you choose can help you meet a friend.

The above will probably help you unless you are so depressed that you are effectively comatose and can't move. That's a real thing that happens to depressed people, but I think you could avoid that outcome if you're still mobile.

Hmm. I've been in your position. I tried to eat better, continue working on things I cared about, be nice to people, and exercise. It didn't actually change much for me.

However, when I started taking anti-depressant medications things did change. I am still trying to live a socially and physically healthy life, but I'm noticing changes that weren't happening before taking the medication. Physical differences like food tasting better, feeling warmth instead of nothing, increased sex drive and similar things.

Your local city might have programs set up where you can go and get free help. It is something worth looking into if you have the energy.

Right now, even though my situation is very similar to where I was before, choosing to live is a lot easier. I actually acknowledge all the good things a lot more then I used to and its much easier for me to be happy about the improvements I see rather then focused on my failures. The really cool thing is that without suicide hanging over my head I'm a lot more able to actually do things. When people ask me out to eat I say yes. I've went on trips too. Basically, there are a lot of fun and good things that you will be able to do once you've dealt with this.

Good luck and hopefully you find my anecdote helpful.