Send your emails yourself. It's not like it is hard. At least not harder than integrating to a third party email sender.
- You need to make sure that your email servers IPs are not on black lists.
- That you use DKIM properly
- your multipart mime encoding is correct
- bouncing e-mails are handled...
- take care of scaling & operating the servers
- and so on....
You can spent ( and waste ) a lot of time on this... especially if you are new to email sending..