For what it's worth, silencing my inner monologue was what finally helped me overcome depressive and anxious thoughts. My negative self-talk had gotten so out of control due to my ego that I came to expect failure. I think that's why meditation is so effective for shifting into a positive reality. Also I tried kava yesterday at a local kava bar and discovered that one of its psychoactive effects is that it silences t…
What kind of meditation did you try?
Also letting go of expectation and attachment has really helped. I've come to think of life as kind of a giant video game that angels enter to pass the time. Notions like truth and lies and good and evil have blurred into ways of being or vibes like peace and love and forgiveness. My rational mind is still effective, but now has subjective meaning to support it in a quest aiming more for wisdom than power. Taoism and Buddhism and zen resonate with me, which all started when I read 101 Zen Stories: